Aching heart 2

I don’t know how to start this post, I don’t know if what I will be talking about will be appropriate or not but here I go.

A couple of years a go a friend died after spending almost 7 months in ICU of a hospital after having a devastating car accident where his dad passed away immediately and he died after six months during which he showed no sign of activity.

I prayed that Allah will show us a miracle in him, that he will fully recover and all this would be a distant memory. But things didn’t work as I wished. He died leaving behind a young wife, a baby he never saw and for me a big question mark, a deep feeling of disappointment and a feeling of anger. Never have I reached peace with myself regarding this issue.

The reason of this introduction is now another friend is in the same situation, a car accident, lots of broken bones, a comma and galtat in his blood stream. A young wife, two little girls are praying they themselves survived a car accident a couple of months ago.

The thing is when I start and pray for him I unconsciously started using the same prayers I used for the first friend, I stopped and didn’t know what to say and couldn’t continue.
I know there are things in our lives we cant control, I am quite aware of the fact that I may not finish this post I am comfortable with this fact my only regret would be my sins not that I would have wanted to have more or do more cause I will be certain I have fulfilled my share.