27 August, 2007

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

26 August, 2007

R

R (u know the one I mentioned in my posts before ) finally joined the blog sphere, sooooo happy she did as I will read her more, just hoping this will further enrich her thoughts and c her soon in Alex.

Go Rubi GO

18 August, 2007

New Book



Think this is the first time ever I get a book as a gift, I always tell people which books I want and where to get it from. Fa this came quite as a surprise.
Cant wait to read it as I didn’t hear about the author or the title before.
Thanks for the book and thanks for the chocolate, though I wished it would have lasted till I finish the book

options


In our life we face lots of options, some are right and others are wrong. Chocolate was never an option but a necessity, and I hated cigarettes cause it affects how food tastes in your mouth and I “really” appreciate food. Really wish I can consider hashish as an option but till then will stick to more chocolate

Adabi wala Elmi

Adabi wala 3elmi

Yahhhhh, thought I was way pass this question, but unfortunately I am not, I was asked this question today, usually it is asked in the sense of 2enta 3abeet wala 2eh.
Anyways, I was never good when it came to mathematics, but I am sure I am good at other things, fa what the heck. And I was 3elmi, my GPA was good, got a diploma, preparing my EMBA and flunked CFA twice Kaman.

Competer

In the train, heading back to alex, y didn’t I blog on my way to cairo, cause the laptop had a panic attack.

Yep, u know those time when ur pc freezes or wont start for no apparent reason and with out doing anything it starts working again normally. This is exactly my case.

Someone asked me what do I call my laptop, I found this question strange, usually I call it “competer” or “el e27’tera3” we only call cars. Aziza,1,2,3…..etc

The thing is now, I don’t like my laptop, don’t know y. I never did since the first time I bought it, though great specs, light and good battery, but not me. El mosiba I am thinking of changing it now.

Aching heart 2

I don’t know how to start this post, I don’t know if what I will be talking about will be appropriate or not but here I go.

A couple of years a go a friend died after spending almost 7 months in ICU of a hospital after having a devastating car accident where his dad passed away immediately and he died after six months during which he showed no sign of activity.

I prayed that Allah will show us a miracle in him, that he will fully recover and all this would be a distant memory. But things didn’t work as I wished. He died leaving behind a young wife, a baby he never saw and for me a big question mark, a deep feeling of disappointment and a feeling of anger. Never have I reached peace with myself regarding this issue.

The reason of this introduction is now another friend is in the same situation, a car accident, lots of broken bones, a comma and galtat in his blood stream. A young wife, two little girls are praying they themselves survived a car accident a couple of months ago.

The thing is when I start and pray for him I unconsciously started using the same prayers I used for the first friend, I stopped and didn’t know what to say and couldn’t continue.
I know there are things in our lives we cant control, I am quite aware of the fact that I may not finish this post I am comfortable with this fact my only regret would be my sins not that I would have wanted to have more or do more cause I will be certain I have fulfilled my share.

12 August, 2007

Aching heart


Was happy when I left work to day, the weather had a cool breath and hoping for a good night sleep now.

Going to bed with an aching heart.

A friend who I worked with and prayed for his family who had a car accident a couple of months ago, he himself had a car accident and now in the intensive care.

My aunt is in hospital trying to control a floating galta in her vessels. Galta took the life of my great grandma and grandma. All the dark thoughts are flying in my aunt head now.

A friend bardo who is suffering from a painful divorce that came after an emotionally abusive marriage is still searching for redemption for her soul and single handed is trying to raise her children and cope with life.

I don’t think I ever feared death, what I fear is meeting Allah with all those sins I know and others I don’t know. I just fear death before Ramadan.

When Ramadan I near, I pray I can reach it so I would make up for all my sins and bit falls and every Ramadan I feel I dint do a fraction of what I planned to do. Regret follows cause I didn’t do as planed and I wonder if I will live for another Ramadan to be given another chance.

Prayers go for all the people I mentioned


اللهم بلغنا رمضان

اللهم بلغنا رمضان

اللهم بلغنا رمضان

11 August, 2007

7

Greed:Very Low
 
Gluttony:Medium
 
Wrath:Low
 
Sloth:Medium
 
Envy:Very Low
 
Lust:Low
 
Pride:Medium
 


Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

10 August, 2007

another note to self

I need to work on my negotiation skills, spelling and structured report writing and above all find a new thing to do beside work, study, eating and reading,

Wish I can get involved in any type of physical activity, u know the type that makes endorphins pumping in your blood instead of chocolate.

The Collector


Been 3 days since I last read news papers this a record for me, I read news papers on daily basis, ahram as a hard copy and others as soft copies on the net.
I read mickey and now I have lots of pending books to read think I became a “collector” u know they are the type of people who get books put them in the library cause they look nice and leave a good impression when people come visiting.
The book that left me with that feeling is the new harry potter, I still have pending readings from my last order, but never the less I got the seventh part, it wont run out and will get a bit cheaper by the time I finish my penindgs, but it was a compulsive behavior I need to control.

shatafat

Hotel was mmmmm ok, didn’t have time to get accustomed to it, but I prefer the old hotel more.
This would make the reader wonder how do a hotel stand out with me, well my judgment is based on clean sheets and the present of shatafa.
Yes u red it right, Shatafa, seems cairo have an issue with shatafat, they don’t like it, they prefer the hoze type not the built in type. This one I really hate.


This is why movenbick scored least with me, then Sheraton,
Every hotel should have a an ideal standard with a built in shatafa.

Usually when I am in cairo I chk in horreys hotel ( hate them ) but the closest I can get to meryland and nasr city, then el marwa palace in el mesaha square, a + for being near metro market, accessible by the under ground and near work, then the new arrival the concorde, the place more reachable than el marwa, but no shatafa at all but a bedeeh.

Pic pic from whose ego

Back to alex

Ok, one best thing about the train and cairo is it lets me pick up on my blogging, which has suffered lots lately cause of work, studying and me being old me a lazy brota.

Lucky I have finally a moza beside me this time, but she is the nervous type, I am afraid to initiate a conversation with. But alas. Better safe than sorry.

The train is like a family gathering, not the gloomy men with laptops and beat up people who snore all the way.
But families and their children, ages 5 to 8 very energetic mashaa allah and NOISY. Thanks for modern technology, earphones and panadol i have been isolated from the noise and some what was a pleasant ride, as for the moza thing, she was about to lose it, all the noise, children running around and children moving the food tray on the back of her seat, was like hell for her. she read el ahram, tried to read a couple of pages from "no one sleep in alex" but she couldnt, tried being nice and offer here a panadol but she refused politly

Strange now as people are disembarking all the children fell asleep and seem to be out of energy.

Over and out till next Sunday.

س ح م


سافر حتموت محروق

I hate them, I really wish to know how people in the first class manage to get their tickets, I am willing to pay the premium but still cant get tickets, even if I book 3 days a head. Someone told me they sell the tickets for judges and neyaba guys and that they have a subsidy, no wonder the rail way authority is losing that much.
Have to give them credit that the air condition is functioning great but thumps down for making alex-cairo trip a 3 hour trip instead of 2.

Cairo take 2

here I am again, on a train heading back to cairo :-( better prepared than last time but still, sometimes I wounder what happened to me, I used to be better than that, wonder what was it I lost along the way.

Company around me is more pleasant than last time, a fiftish lady just keeping her side of the seat and minding her own business, but she is cool. Will come to that part later
And on the other side, a young man, early twentieth, playing loud music on his nokia mobile, but cool collections fa fol, what makes the lady cool, when hotel California started to play, she started moving her fingers with the rhythm,

Ok, have said lots of things about why I hate cairo, now think it is time to say somethings I like about it.

Inshaa allah when I arrive I will find tomorrow news papers available
They have cool book stores
They city stay up late, so if it is 2 am I can still find places to hang out
Kobri asr el nile, I love standing on it and looking down to the flowing river while feeling the vibes of the cars passing by
She lives in cairo
Chillis nile city, hate the one in alex
Koshari shop the other side of ramsis station
Culture life of cairo
Compu me and virgin
Kotob khan ( I buy tons of books from their but never been to it)
Midan el mesa7a, don’t ask me y, but I love this area and walking around.

What I cant wait for now is getting mickey, go to the hotel and grab a hot sandwich along, pray and pray and sleep.

06 August, 2007

N

N is in Kuwait. Really miss having him around though when we went out we didn’t talk a lot but was comforting having him around. Prayers goes to him to succeed in his job, do good and lead a better life.

:-(

A friend told me our relation with ALLAH is like our relation with everything else that is it has its ups and downs. Now I feel I am in a slump stopped praying fajr, forgot almost all the quran I memorized and don’t pray in the mosque as I used to. I feel ALLAH is beside more than ever before but I am basta3bat, feel bad awi and not doing anything fa feel bad more another viscous cycle added to my life

اللهم احيني مادامت الحياة خيرا لي وتوفني ما دامت الوفاة خيرا لي

Her


I miss Her.

I always wanted to share more than desert at chillis. I wanted to share a life time, but things didn’t work out. First time I went to omra I prayed she would be mine, I prayed so hard like I never prayed before, but ALLAH had other plans, second time I went I prayed She would be for someone far better than me, I prayed equally hard bas bardo. I never knew how, why or what I am hopping for. Am I being stubborn or it is ALLAH will. Now I pray for a sign hope I am not too blind so I could c it.

Remember nagat song, la takzebi,
كنتي لي ذنب دعوت الله الا يغفره
I wish there is an undo button, I would undo my self from her life but will keep her in mine.

Reflections on me

Was updating my savings after lots of changes, down fall of the dollar exchange rate, decline in stock prices, changes in interest rates ( would add options, swaps, mutual funds and Swiss accounts but I would be day dreaming )

I remembered her, first time we sat down before “meet the parents” and opened all my financial secrets to her. What I had was the bare minimum, a very modest shabka and mahr and was considering the cheapest alternative for a kitchen design.

Things started when I was 25, things were simple back then just simple dreams and hope for a better future, not WOW or over or anything just to lead a simple life.

If anyone back then told me I would be able to do the things I do today I would call them crazy and shooting for the stars. I got what I never dreamt off and never got what I dreamt off.

Sometimes our simplest dreams are the most difficult to come true.
Just el hamdulelah

Train thoughts

On my way back to alex now after spending the day in cairo. I still do hate cairo, despite all the thoughts of realocating and everything, I still find it difficult to accept and digest. People are strange, don’t know y???!!! and it is affecting everything, starting from driving till work. Cramped up in a car at 6:30 in the morning with 3 others, yes I was sitting in the back seat with another couple of coworkers. Things didn’t went that good, but I wasn’t that prepared fa it was ok. Still have to be back on Thursday, hope I could prepare better during that time.

I wonder y I never get to sit beside a cool girl while traveling, whether by a superjet or train or anything always a male and if I am lucky he wont smell.

Dark and Bitter

No it isn’t my life, but dark chocolate, R brought me a bar of it when she came visiting this time, she remembered I like chocolate, and remembered I liked it dark in specific and she brought me a bar along, was sooooooo touched.

I miss having R around. We didn’t talk a lot but she knows me more than anyone else, she is my advisor when it comes to my relation with the fairer sex, a gift advisor and a secret keeper.

She is working abroad just wish she is happy and eventually she will find the peace she really deserve and we could talk more often.

Boys and there toys


Ok, in lectures now, another marketing lecture and totally off mode. Marketing lectures used to be fun but studying always turned out to be a real pain.

So decided to pick up on my late blogging.
Boys and their toys.

This is my new toy, the palm treo 680. Not a Nokia communicator not an I-mate or a black berry but my good old reliable palm with a phone.

Palm never picked up in Egypt, think cause people never needed a real organizer or task manager with the life styles we are leading. The N series are beating the E series out of business in Egypt. People are getting I-mates to show off.

Having a palm was a dream, I liked the visor ( an old palm device manufacturer who was acquired by palm) but never got a chance to buy it. My first palm was a second hand device I got it from a friend who bought what I said about palm devices but he couldn’t “relate to it” so he got a regular mobile with a good camera.

It was like magic, if it is on my palm, then I don’t have an excuse for not remembering. My mom shopping list became easier to remember I even thought she could make it on a pc and when I sync I get it on my palm, but I was day dreaming.



Anyways the new palm treo is far much advanced, it got 3 times the strength of my first pc. I got a data SIM from Vodafone, it is way too cool I can log to the net, check my mails, even an occasional chat. And the coolest thing about it is that it doesn’t support voice calls, just SMS and thinking of using it as a pager.

Bad points, poor battery life, small buttons for the keyboard and no WI-FI which means I depend on my SIM for data communication.

If ur interested drop me a line on 0109075093