29 November, 2007

Hijj

الحمد الله علي نعمه الاسلام و توفيق الايمان و كفي بهما نعمه
قعدت افكر كتير ازاي اكتب البوست ده. ملقتش كلام ممكن يوصف الجوايا و اعبر اد ايه اني حاسس بفضل ربنا عليا. الحمد الله ربنا كرمني و اسمي طلع مع حجاج القرعه و انشاء الله حسافر لمده شهر للحج.

زمان كنت بقول لنفسي ان الحج اولي من العمره و الاحسن اني احج مره واحده الفكره دي اتغيرت مره و انا بصلي التراويح مره في رمضان. وانا قايم من الركوع مره واحده حسيت اني في الحرم المكي و راسي بتحك في ستاير الكعبه. قلبي وجعني اوي و حسيت بشوق غريب. الحمدالله نفس السنه روحت عمره و ربنا كرمني اخر كرم من الفلوس و الصحبه و التيسيرو هناك دعيت ربنا يرجعني تاني في عمره الدعاء كان عند الملتزم بين باب الكعبه و الحجر الاسود

الحمد الله رجعت تاني. بعديها ب 3 سنين. حمدت ربنا و انا ساجد في المسجد النبوي في الروضه و في رمضان بعد صلاه التراويح علي النعمه و استجابت الدعاء. و دعيت تاني ربنا انه يعدني في عمره بس بعدين استصغرت نفسي اوي اني في المكان ده و دعيت بعمره فدعيت بحجه قريب حسيت اني بطلب المستحيل بس اذا مكنتش حطلب المستحيل في المكان ده حطلبه فين و من مين لغير من ربنا في مسجد رسوله

طول السنه و انا بفكر في الحج و اطلب الاذن من ربنا انه يسمحلي و يعني عليه. قعدت افكر واحسبها و اد ايه حتئسر علي فلوس انا شيلها لجواز و شقه و كمان ازاي انا طلبت تقدير سنوي بسيط في الشغل عشان متشتغلش نفسي و اد ايه ده حيفرق معايا في توزيع الارباح.

كنت فاكر ان حج القرعه ده للناس الكبيره و الوسايط مش واحد عادي يعني يدخل و يقدم و يتقبل. بس قدمت ليا و لاختي و في نفس الوقت دورت في شركات السياحه الاسعار كانت بتتكلم في الاربيعينات بس الحمدالله طول عمري متاكد ان الفلوس الي بتتدفع ل الله مبتروحش و ترجع بزياده.

و في يوم مش ولابد في الشغل ماما اتصلت بيا في الشغل و بلغتني ان القسم اتصل و بلغها ان انا و اختي اتقبلنا في القرعه. رحت علي القسم و فعلنا لقيت اسمي و اسم اختي موجود. و مشيت في الاجراءات و كله كان ميسر و بتكاليف تقريبا تلت الي كنت حدفعه في اي شركه سياحه و كمان ربنا رزقني بصحبه صالحه معايا علي نفس الرحله.
حاسس بكرم رهيب من ربنا و حاسس بخوف رهيب اني مستهلش الكرم ده. عمري ماخوفت علي نفسي ولا صحتي بس خايف يحصلي حاجه قبل احرام الحج و خايف منلش وقفه عرفه و خايف فلوسي تكون حرام و اول ما ابتدي تلبيه الملايكه ترد لا لبيك خايف من ذنوب كتير عملتها و ذنوب اكتر عملتها و نسيها و خايف ان ربنا مخليني سبب لطلوع اختي مش عشان

حسيس بكرم ربنا و حاسس اني مستهلوش. وانا بشوف اسماء زمايلي في القسم لقيت ناس جيه و مبتلقيش اسمها قلي بقالو 3 سنين بيقدم ولي كبير في السن و نفسه يحج قبل مايموت و بنات نفسها تحج و مش لاقيا محرم معاها شوق من ناس كتير تروح.

غالبنا ده حيكون اخر بوست عشان انشاء الله حسافر يوم السبت. الي طالبه دعاكم ان ربنا يعني و يتقبل و انشاء الله حدعي لناس كتير من البلوج عمر مشفتوهم و يمكن عمر ماعلقت عندهم كمان.
و السلام ختام

تلبيات الحرام بترن في وداني و نفسي اقولها بصوت عالي.

Train thoughts take II

Ok, ok, it is a conspiracy, someone flagged me in the train authority, I never get to sit beside a hot chic. Or matter of fact wala chic 7ata.

The one that caught my attention the most was one who bought mickey from the news stand and when she got on the train she immediately started reading it. She is falling in the hottest chic category on my scale.

Happy day is when I meet an old friend, have a good talk, a good hot chocolate, find good taxis that know how to avoid traffic jams. And lastly finding mickey geib and super mickey in the same day.

Nop this isn’t lastly, lastly is inshaa allah arriving home to my family with a good hot meal and my bed.

21 November, 2007

Me don’t like.

For geeks, this is the most exciting thing since the invention of the mobile phone, I followed its news since beta version, read extensive reviews since its actual launch but mmmmmmmmmmm.

Few of my friends got it and had tried it several times, Apple, I would give u this, awesome screen and thin, but software is basic, no frills all versions were hacked to work in Egypt and a bit on the heavy side.

Typing messages was rather funny, just like typing on glass, handling messages is rather strange as I couldn’t find a forward option. Doesn’t support 3G, and guys I am not talking about video calls, but data transfer rates.

On the major plus side and I would categorize as alien technology the zoom in and out of a picture and how the screen seamlessly changes orientation as u swivel the device vertically and horizontally.

Sells for 4,500 u get it from the states for 2000 my fair price for it would be 1500

Did I mention it contains an I pod. And don’t think I have to comment on it capabilities.

Note to Rubi. U gotta get u one as soon as it is available, this baby is has your name all over it.

In the land of the blind, the one eyed man is a king.

Got totally bored of work and was just after the 3esha prayer, watching the streets from my office window and I found 2 young men early twenties on their wheel chairs crossing the street from the club to a petrol station just the other side.

One of them both his legs were amputated the other young man had one leg totally amputated and the other leg just amputated above the knee and using an artificial limp.

They got out of the club wheeled a while to reach a U turn and then enter the petrol station. Our streets aren’t handicaps friendly they are even challenging for those enjoying perfect health.

The pavement is soooooo high, with no convenient slopes for the elderly and wheel chairs. So the one with a third of a leg just got out of the wheelchair, leaned on his friend wheel chair and gave him a push to help him up the almost 40cm high pavement, then pulled himself up with the help of his friend.
They did such a move perfectly as if they had practiced it over and over.
Just speechless. Tonight prayers goes to them and all the ones like them. May they serve as a reminder for the countless blessings we take for granted.


اللهم متعنا بابصارنا واسماعنا وقواتنا مااحييتنا اللهم عوض اخوننا خيرا في الجنه ان شاء الله
اللهم انفعهم بمايسرت لهم

13 November, 2007

a quote

What do we live for, if it is not to make life less difficult for each other.

How true, but this was said in a different time, in a different place by a person who just wanted her thoughts to be taken seriously, remembered this qyote when i read it in a blog

Now some do live with the same motto but with the “less” removed. I do find such people all around me starting from work, streets even mosques.

Life shouldn’t be easy, people should suffer, if I can make things tough I should do so with no regret, why should I be the only one suffering or having a tough time.

I miss seeing people reaching for and helping others out. Why should such actions be strange and when occurring to be highlighted as if this isn’t the norm. this really hurt.

There is a verse in Quran about giving, and giving form what we love the most. For some money has no value while their time is more precious, if they give out of their money is good, but if they give out of their time is much better.


Prayers for tonight for tolerance and understanding to fill our hearts.

Cannibalizing on relations


Unmet targets means intensifying marketing activity, and this where I least perform, simply cause I am too shy to make the first call. Yes SHY.
I do my homework right, study potential subjects, gather info and understand the business and needs but when the moment of truth comes to make the first contact baaaaammmmmmm I freeze and chicken out.

The worst situation ever was the first time I went to Her house and proposed to her dad, yahhhhhhhhhhhhhh speaking of being out of words, 3 minutes and I was completely out of words. And to make matters worse, Her dad sensed the embarrassment I was suffering and tired hard not to laugh but a light smile gave him away.

So my coward technique involve finding people I know who know people I can target some call this “networking” but still even in this I cant do it in a natural way and feel I am cannibalizing (other prefer the term “Capitalizing”) on relations.

Friends are friends business shouldn’t be involved cause it will ruin it as the true purpose of friendship will be distorted. ( feel I am meshayes in the concept)

Finally, if anyone have any good business contacts pls do pass them along ( kidding, or am I not)

Winter thoughts

Ok, it is somewhat officially winter in Alex, and it rained Kaman just light rain for father winter to say I am here. Hope H is satisfied now, though I would have preferred poring rain, lighting and thunder and the whole works.
People in Alex are already in deep winter clothes, specially the girls. Seems the got bored of summer clothes and decided to switch despite how wonderful the weather is now. i personally think that winter clothes are more elegant on women than summer clothes.

Speaking of which, I have a VERY week point towards women in fur. Don’t know why. Just feel them more sexy and huggable in furs. Thank god I hardly see any furs in Egypt.

Lady D

D is one of my friends, we randomly met and we discovered we have lots in common, common friends, education, college bla bla bla.

From my opinion she had the perfect job, she used to be a French teacher in a private school despite her being a business graduate. She always wanted more.

More not in financial terms or unrealistic dreams, but she simply wanted to be happy, loved and understood. Those were my thoughts of her needs, but she never expressed them bluntly rather she used the words bored, nothing new and want to do more.

She couldn’t continue living in Alex and couldn’t continue in what I saw as a dream job for women. So she took a courageous decision, she quit her job, settled in Cairo and took the career of a script translator. At that time I just finished reading the alchemist and how he started his journey to find meaning and purpose, she some how reminded me of him and wished she would find the same ending.

She is still not happy; she hates Cairo and the new career. But think she is better off venturing into new experiences and feelings.

Sometimes I wonder, are we humans created to be adventures and daring or we prefer to be safe and secure, just what is our default.

At this point of time lots of questions are just zooming in my head and all with no answer.

A final note, always laugh my heart out when I remember having lunch with her and I was walking behind her and she stood in front of the dinners door f or few seconds, first thought their was something wrong with the door, but she was waiting for me to open it and I didn’t realize that. We always have quite a laugh when I remember this situation ( she isn’t a snob and I am not that impolite)

05 November, 2007

Reflection in the mirror


i woke up this morning, saw my reflection in the mirror, and just missed the person i used to be 3 years ago.

02 November, 2007

you are invited to comment.

it's over bet. us without one single word i know these are hardtimes but i told him i'll wait for you i know i'm not good at all at expressing myself even in the simplest of situations with the simplest words or gestures but he should know this i told him but i didn't tell him that i need him & i miss him alot. he just stopped communicating i tell myself he tried to speak to me afterwards but i didn't encourage him enough i didn't do my best... yes, i blame myself. other thoughts tell me "no" if he wanted to do anything he'd have done it he would have done anything to reach you. thoughts tear me apart:(((((( why on earth would a guy run after a girl for the sake of just a smile or a word or even a glance for months then dump her just like this????????

anonymus posted this as a reply on one of my posts, afraid i am not qualefied to advise, so inviting fellow bloggers to share their experience.

A sister my parents never gave me

I am sooooo happy tody, I got great news about a coworker who used to work with us, she was literally a sister. Unfortunately, she decided to quit and disappear.

Tried hard to get in touch but all my efforts weren’t rewarded. Just by mere coincidence was talking to an elder coworker who just met her father, el hamdulelah she left Egypt, went to the US, got married and has 2 daughters. Was soooo happy to hear the great news. Also Me appeared on the blogsphere again after ages, cant wait to read more from her.

Tonight prayers goes to her, her two daughters and all the ones who touched our lives in the most special way ever and our paths just went separate ways.

Again mounir song keeps echoing in my my head, “el lo2a akeed men ba3d el wada3”

M&MS



M&Ms, really can never imagine how human ingenuity come with such things (this off course aside from kitkat) I am really an addict to it. A real moral booster.

Don’t know why we never have the big packages in Egypt, i.e., the buckets, or the innovative M&Ms dispensers like the one I just got. (I personally raised this subject with Master Foods people in Egypt)

I always ask for chocolate from anyone traveling abroad and especially to England, don’t know why British chocolates taste better.

For all my friends, may you travel a lot and never forget me in your travels ;-)

4 Oclock snack


The new hip thing around the office these days in Endomi, and it became my favorite 4 oclock snack, want to chk knonour as well, they say they got into the “instant soup” market, I think zaman I used to drink it under the brand ”bachelor soup”

I saw a very nice ad on TV, she cooks for peace, she cooks for love, she cooks for family really touchy.
Among the ads I really want to chk but never got a chance to, Vodafone new ads about 2agmad khamsa. Seems to be really cool but I always manage to catch the last 10 seconds only of it, never the beginning, unlike Mobinl, I caught all their ads the ones my friends calls 2e3lan el 2erd, really hate them


Mood

Really sad and unhappy and wayyyyy down, cant find anyone to talk to and trust their judgment, or go out with and enjoy their company. Miss my friends who are now scattered all over the globe.
Surrounded by people who have their secrete agendas, want to push me to choices to
ultimately serve their needs or simply being mean.